low .

memories do appeared back sometimes kan?
i'm not talking only on :) memories.
it's more to the other side.
and it happens to me today.
TWICE.

i . guess . i . have . to . be . more . stronger . than ever .

gasping .

pounding .

i feel crushed.
i know it's for my own good.
to make me realize all the wrongdoings.


dear god.
keep me strong.

praying harder .

freezing .

the clock strikes 2 in the morning. just finished updating my to-do lists, which getting longer. adoy pening2. so many work to do yet so little time. okay waney, silabertahan. no idea to write about, just i feel reaaaaaaaally blur right now - although my brain is crammed up with all the work to be done. haha. brain freeze punyakes.

hm. the new semester has started. no plans, no resolutions. apenakjadi. i already have some in mind, just i haven't specifying them yet. but yes, i will make it, sooner. sooner? haha. when is sooner ha waney? next year eh? :p

okay. my plans with my honeys - Aqee, Eira, Farah - CANCELLED. waaaaaaa so sad. i got some meetings to attend, and a competition which is compulsory for me to participate. and eira have a class this weekend, which she couldn't ponteng because takbolehbuatmainmain. sorry ya guys, i promise one day we will holiday-ing together-gether.

ha, my dear mimi had an accident with shano last night. hancoketehonda. some wise lorry driver can't manage to step on the break paddle, hitting on another honda car, hitting shano's. luckily they are fine and everything had been taken care of. so guys, please drive safely. our life is too short to be wasted. :)

banyakpulakmembebel. clearly i'm tense. but i have to overcome this. yes. i need to. thanks to my saviour, zafashazz who always been there for me. hope you will always be by my side. praying hard for it. :*

holding on .

time .

first of all, happy new year to everyone. like there is anyone else who read this except myself. haha.

not much. just. some mixed feelings. which is difficult and hard to express. and yup, the hardest thing for me to do is to really say what i really feel. duh.

let me try to put this in metaphor. easier for me to say it without directly pointing towards the people that are included in this babbling.



sometimes,
i do feel that i really need to runaway,
which anybody would die to do,
but yet i keep stayed,
firmly although broken inside,

then the time comes,
where i finally get the courage,
which then i decided,
i need to be freed,
to smell the fresh air,

times fly,
sun and skies up high,
i think i found the place,
where i can be myself,
no need to hide no more,

just in time,
suddenly lightning struck,
and i hurt myself,
which is unacceptable,
as i have throw it away,

in the meantime,
i know i should forget,
but somehow,
it keeps coming back,
just go and fly away.

come, go .

nyr ?

updating..

updating..

updating..

dating..

eh?

oops .